I have back dated many new posts (and many more in the next few days). This is a journey for me and also for you to witness. For months I haven't updated my blog. I will be honest....
I'm embarrassed.
I'm embarrassed that I don't write like I used to. That my mind isn't working like it did. I get frustrated, worried, sad, disappointed and most of all, embarrassed. While I get that this is my journey back to health, I wonder whether people think I should be further ahead than I am. Yes, I still worry about what people think (less than I used to though!).
My processing isn't up to what it was and my 'funny bone' isn't quite re-installed yet. Ok, that was a little bit funny...or was it?
I've been writing but not publishing, hoping that I could go back and polish up each post. It wouldn't truly reflect how far I've come if I do that. Robynn, was the one to point out that showing my progress to others and especially myself, would be a good reason to continue. I've been procrastinating because of fear.
Be kind ;)
xo
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